Collin

School's In

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Mon, 13 Jan 2003 23:34:18 GMT

School officaly is gonna kick my ass.

17 units. 17!!! I think i may die.

Who Knew

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 09 Jul 2002 22:03:51 GMT

I killed three muthafuckas and I don't know why.

I like Saul Willams.

Death Star

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 04 Jul 2002 08:50:05 GMT

I'm so lost but in a good way, I'm happy I'm not fucking up this time.

I'm not disappointed with myself this time around. It's a nice feeling, though most everything else isn't.

Scapegoat

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jul 2002 22:40:48 GMT

Why me?

Why god why?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?????!?!!!!!??!?!

Full of Fire

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jul 2002 22:38:11 GMT

I want to write but the words aren't there.

Without Me

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 02 Jul 2002 20:01:28 GMT

Distance is the answer.

Day one: I'm sure I can do it this time, it's gonna be hard, painfull and lame but Imma alienate myself from just about everyone.

This is very hurty.

Rock the House

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Sat, 29 Jun 2002 17:51:38 GMT

No!

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Wed, 26 Jun 2002 04:15:26 GMT

"Whether gays like it or not, "gay" can also mean stupid or lame. Like for example, "This letter is fucking gay." But remember how it used to mean happy? Faggot used to mean a bundle of wood, fags were cigarettes, queer used to just mean strange, and fairies used to grant us wishes and turn our pumpkins into racecars. Now all of them mean, "I wish I had some hot cock sex." For gay people to complain about someone co-opting the meaning of a word is maximumly ridiculous. In fact, to avenge the English language, I think we should take their only original word, "homosexual," and start having it mean "farting space menace." "
SeanBaby is great. Really really great.

No!

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Wed, 26 Jun 2002 01:43:13 GMT

Genius

Find out what anime character cliche you are.

I Am Not Your Broom

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 25 Jun 2002 15:25:01 GMT

Be your own broom,
Broom is his own broom.

They Might Be Giants rock my face. HARD.

The Piece Maker

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Jun 2002 18:26:36 GMT

http://www.brunching.com/toys/blankanonymous.html

Lets here it for addiction.

The Art of Getting Jumped

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Fri, 21 Jun 2002 09:38:07 GMT

HAHAHAHA!!!! They said England had a fighting chance, THEY DIDN'T!

EAT BRAZILIAN BALL YOU COCKY FUCKS!!!

Defence alone doesn't win games.

Ronaldo is my hero, someday, him and Pelé will come and kick the shit out of that ref in the US Vs. Mexico game.

We'll see whats up now, Brazil is going all the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Delirium what what.

On A Mission

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 13 Jun 2002 09:22:06 GMT

Ride with us (Rug y'know the bitch beater)
Ride with us (Suffolk County, Long Island)
Ride with us (Dead broke black people)
Ride with us (Dead broke white people)
Ride with us (My man Smoothe Da Hustler)
Ride with us (Rest in peace Jason Edmands)
Ride with us (Gordon Heights, ghostland)
Ride with us(Dirty crusty asses)
Ride with us (The whole Infamous Mobb)
Ride with us (My main man Akinyele)
Ride with us (The whole white trash nation)
Ride with us (All the Stony Brook kids)
Ride with us (All the Port Jeff kids)
Ride with us (My man Ev Casuchi)
Ride with us (Capital of Crime Lords)
Ride with us (Miguel the cop in the house)
Ride with us (Sho' nuff, Dave Greenberg)
Ride with us (All the starvin artists)
Ride with us (All the starvin artists)
Ride with us (All the starvin artists)
Ride with us

The Way I Am

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 13 Jun 2002 09:13:50 GMT

Discovering how little you know about your friends is weird, discovering how little you know about yourself is another thing all together.

My mind is changing so fast I can't seem to get a decent grip on my identity. It's not a bad thing, not that good of a thing. As Joel would say, it's interesting. As I would say, it's a learning experience. One minute I'm this, the next I'm that. I'm growing up and that's... different. It's one of those things I like but it still scares the hell out of me, like sex and drugs. In a couple of years Imma move out, go to College, and probably not see any of my friends for a very long time. That's so strange. I won't be hanging out with Joel or Lu everyday, I won't be living with my parents, I won't live in P-Town, I'll be off in the wild blue yonder going "Goddamn, how the fuck did I get here?!?"

Looking at where I was, who I was three or four years ago makes me feel really old in a twisted way. It's a combination of coming so far but having a ways to go.

I was:
Hyper,
Loud,
Insecure,
Outgoing,
Funny,
Nice,
Crazy about Brittany and Sam,
Happy.

I am:
Smart,
Cynical,
Witty,
Lonely,
Outgoing,
Whiny,
Bored.

That's the changes in brief. Alot of other stuff in there but I'm too lazy to type it up. There are alot of things I like about the past, but since I'm cool and dwell on the past too much, I have alot of regrets too. There are alot of things I would have done had I been smarter. But I wasn't so I didn't. Funny how that works.

For me to operate well, I need to have at least one consistent good deep friendship, which is something thats hard to come by lately. All my good friends now are guys and we don't talk which is totally rad and I've been coming to accept that I can't rely on Brittany or Sam for that, which sucks cause they were really good at that. So I been looking for a new one and doing that has given me an appreciation for the ones I had and the effort I put into them.

The top five freindships I put hella work into:
1: Brittany.
2: Sam
3: Raina. It's impressive that 1) I put that much work into her in such a short time and 2) that it all came to NOTHING.
4: Marina
5: Elica

Yeah, they are all girls, the guys I don't generally need to work on. Freindships with guys just work or they don't most the time, fixing them isn't usually an issue. But girls, they take time, effort and willpower. Goddamn.

I want to have a pik-a-nik. Yogi Style.

Must not sleep, must warn others...

Under the Influence

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 11 Jun 2002 18:21:43 GMT

HA MUTHAFUCKIN HA.

On a different note, it's very summerish. Next week classes start and it won't be summerish. WEAK.

I have a new friend. Not really new actully, just different and not someone I'm not around all the time. Had a really good talk with Chelsea the other night and it was rad. I talked about how I'm really egotistical and destined for greatness and she talked about life and religion. It was good. I haven't really had a good old fashioned talk-for-hours-about-nothing-or-everything talk in a long time. I like talking with Veronica but there is rarely the time for it.

Life is a huge cube of ice that you're standing on and it's melting, and every so often it just rolls to the side and you have to stay on top of it until it's all melted. So put that in your pipe and smoke it.

I think Imma take a break from drinking for a month or so. It's about time I did that again.

Serious Sam: SE is the greatest thing ever, everyone should play that game, it's so sweet and fun and so muching video-gamey goodness. I think it's funny that the only person who will read this and say "I know what Serious Sam: SE is and I think Collin is right and I should play that game" is Lu. Everyone else who reads this will most likely be lost. Kinda makes you wonder why I even bother to mention it. I'm just cool like that.

I been acting the flake recently, I gotta stop that.

If I Can Dream

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Fri, 07 Jun 2002 05:43:20 GMT

What alien are you? test by koolerthanjesus

Night Light

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Jun 2002 16:10:59 GMT

Why don't you shut the fuck up and realize what you're holding ain't really broken?

Brain Damage

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 06 Jun 2002 04:19:18 GMT

I act like I'm 21.
This test was brought to you by David - Part of the David and James phenomenon. Take it here.

Without a Doubt

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Mon, 03 Jun 2002 18:10:59 GMT

When they bring about the apocalypse, I'll be chilling on the beach.

The beach is a constant. The beach is our friend.

When I was little I would go to the beach with my family almost every weekend. We generally went to Heart's Desire and built dams in the tiny creek of icy cold DOOM water. Back in the day before me and my siblings discovered the wonders of assult and battery, we would eat sandwiches and watch the waves break. I was never big on anything but Heart's Desire, everywhere else seemed so cheap and commercial because of all the people, my beach had few people, it was exclusive. Me and the beach, we had it going on.

Then I got older and my tastes changed. I started to crave attention and girls bodies. My little secluded beach paradise offered neither of these, so I moved on to Salmon Creek. It had a lagoon, Dunes, people and driftwood fires. It was also much bigger and lent itself to parties much better. It worked well for what I wanted and kept me sedated for a long time. I went there with my new and expanding group of friends from the junior high and high school. We used that beach for all manner of things, and it rocked. After a few too many grudges I was carrying became associated with that place thanks to extreme logic, I decided it was time for change.

There's no where but Hawaii left that really makes me as happy as those two beachs used to. None of the other beachs I've been to have fulfilled what I was looking for.

Imma go to the beach.

Tugboat Complex Pt. 3

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Sun, 02 Jun 2002 18:55:39 GMT

If I had one wish, I'd have to go with lots and lots of cash, but short of that I want quiet. My life is loud, and that's cool sometimes but i need a break. I used to be annoyed me silence but now I'm all about it. Nice for clearing your head.

On a side note, Lu is the most rightest person EVER. That whole "Your friends are just the people you hate the least" thing is dead on. As the days go by, the more I despise my group of friends. Except Odie, but I don't hang around him much. I don't care if Al pisses me off cause I've known him for a damn long time and Lu has redeeming qualities than GOD. So, it's not like it bothers me enough that I'll do anything about it, it's just kinda nagging.

I need more shallow friends, like the guys on the debate team. No drama, no shit, just debate, beer, movies, cars and fun. They don't need or want to know the details of my life story, nor do I want to know theirs, we are all just in it for a good time. I like that. And the are all hella smart. Which is rad.

I Do What I Can

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 30 May 2002 04:26:38 GMT

9:09: Restate my assumptions.

1. Everything can be identified and quantified.
2. Everything has a cause and an effect.
3. There is a pattern to everything.

My hypothesis, knowledge is unatainable by those who want to use it. Discovery comes only to those who want knowledge for knowledges sake.

9:23: Press return

Over the Falls

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Sun, 26 May 2002 16:59:18 GMT

LOOK AT THAT SHIT! Woo-mutha Funkin-HA.

Too Drunk to Fuck

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Thu, 23 May 2002 23:02:43 GMT

What kind of drunk are you?

So True!!!

Down 2 Tha Last Roach

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Wed, 22 May 2002 03:50:34 GMT

Eazy-E Rocks a lot of ass. Like Ghetto Booty amounts of ass. Notice the capital G.

Chupacabras

zonzo_i_am@hotmail.com — Tue, 21 May 2002 17:44:39 GMT

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